i have been sick lately and i started getting better, but i blew it all tonight. first, i went to michael moore's speech at school which was fun and fine. but after that, i just HAD to go to this bonfire because i wanted to see a certain girl. and i just HAD to have a couple of beers. i mean it was fun and i got to chill with lots of cool kids, but it was depressing in the end. the girl in question is friendly enough to me, but apparently she thinks a certain friend of mine is very cute and would love it if he called her. i overheard this, she didn't tell it to me. my only hope is that this friend of mine has a girlfriend, so the girl i am speaking of doesnt have much chance. this happens a lot and i don't know if i should give up. it would be pretty easy for me to never see her again, so maybe i will just put it all out on the line. or maybe i will not call her and see what happens. wish me luck this week.

-nate