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failure2003-03-29 1:15 a.m.
hello. this has been such a busy week... wednesday held an art exam that i fucked myself on. today held a psychology exam that i didn't study too much for, but i felt i did well. however, any preparation for this exam put off any preparation for this weekend. "prepare for the weekend!?!?!" you may ask. this weekend, my understanding sucknology professor is having his honors section stay at his house on the lake. this weekend will involve watching sci-fi movies, an exam over vocabularly i need to study for, and just yesterday he told the class that we each have to teach the rest of the class two chapters out of this book about the future of technology. when i was reading it on wednesday, i fell asleep. in other news, i feel more and more like a fuck up. because of what happened last weekend, i told myself i would cut back on the frequency of my drinking and how much i would drink when i drank. i have thus far achieved the second goal. however, drinking friday, saturday, thursday, tonight isn't exactly infrequent. i feel like a failure because of that and also because this morning jenny told me she was disappointed with me for drinking last night because when we were hanging out in the day time, i told her that i didn't want to drink that night. although it adds to guilt, it is nice to have someone that cares about what i do for once. i need help. i need to go to sleep. -nate
went - going - is now
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